Focus

No school, no work day #2.....needless to say the house has turned into a mess with both us girls at home.  With that said, I asked my daughter to take a couple of water bottles down stairs to the kitchen for me so I could pour out the excess before putting in the trash.  At the time I asked her to help me out, she was down stairs watching cartoons relaxing on the couch.  She is starting to fall into the category of lazy with a case of boredom as the weekend has turned into an extended weekend.

When my daughter got upstairs, I handed off 3 bottles to her, this should have been an easy task.  Take the 3 bottles (small bottles) downstairs to the kitchen.  The steps are as follows:   hold bottles, take bottles, walk down stairs, leave bottles on kitchen counter.  Simple right???  Well......we will see.  About 5 seconds after she headed down the stairs I hear, THUD THUD THUD.........I come running.  I find the bottles at the bottom of the stairs and little missy just standing there watching the TV.  After I ask her if she is OK, she turns to me and says YES,  "I just dropped the bottles" she said. "Billie, why do you think you dropped the bottles"?  "I just did" she said.   "You just did, did you"?  Momma!!!! (said with sarcasm).  "Billie, I think you dropped the bottles, because you took your focus off of the task at hand, and put your focus on what was on the television.

IMMEDIATELY Matthew 14:29-30 rushed over me:

He said, "Come ahead".  Jumping out of the boat, Peter walked on the water to Jesus.  But when he looked down at the waves beneath his feet, he lost his nerve and started to sink.  He cried, "Master, save me!"

See, when Peter lost focus on Jesus, he fell in the water.  And when we lose focus on the task at hand, we will fall too.

I tried to explain to my daughter, that if she would have just paid attention to the task she was given, and not been trying to watch the television as she was walking down the stairs, she would not have dropped the bottles.  However, being a 6 year old little girl, she just looked at me like I was crazy, and tried to give me 10 different reasons why she dropped the bottles that didn't point at the television.

Let's remember keep focus on the tasks that God gives us.  As hard as it is, we must focus on His works, not ours.  When we lose sight of Him, we will fall. But when we do fall, remember, He is always there to help us back up again.

Redemption

From the time I can remember, I was exposed to pornography in some form or another.  Magazines, movies, calendars.  The magazines were left out in my dad's bathroom, because he never expected his daughter to look at naked women.........WRONG.  And daddy why were you looking at those women anyway?????   Oh course I was going to look at them, I was a child, and I had a body that was developing.  So my example of the ideal woman was the Playmate of the month for as far back as I can remember.  By the time I was 18 my idol was Pamela Anderson.....yes that's right Miss Baywatch was my idol.  I wanted big boobs, a little waist, and bleach blond hair.  Needless to say, my obsession with Playboy ran well into my late 20's.  I even got to take a trip out to the big ole Mansion at one point in my life.  That was the kind of life I was living back then, life to the fullest, total excess.  FUN ALL THE TIME!!!!!  Yeah fun until people start getting hurt, addictions start, you loose all self control.  Then what once seemed like a good time, turns into nights of disgust with yourself.  When you finally get to the point that you just want it all to end.

I cannot go in depth with this story at this time.  This story is way too long, and way to graphic to share this way.  This story is one of a girl who became so lost in the world she was part of, that she lost herself, her family, her friends and most of all she was getting ready to loose her soul.

Sometimes I have to just sit back and go WOW, that was really me at one time.  How on earth did I get out of that situation, or how did I survive that day?  I will tell you how I survived.  I survived because God had a calling placed on me before I was formed in the womb.  Before my mom and dad ever met it was predestined how God would use me to further His Kingdom.

One day I will be able to share my testimony out in the open.  Honest, unfiltered and raw.  But for now, I want every single women who reads this to know that without a shadow of doubt there is HOPE, there is LOVE, and there is REDEMPTION in the blood of Jesus.  If you think you are so broken or so full of sin that nothing can save you, well sister you are wrong.  God loves you no matter what you have done, or had done to you.

I want you tonight to say this prayer with me......Father God, I am a sinner, and I need you.  I am lost, and do not know what to do.  For so long I have tried to live on my own but I cannot do it anymore.  I submit my life and my will to you in the name of Jesus.  I accept Your Son Jesus as my Lord and Savior, and I repent of all my sins.  In Christ Jesus name I pray.  Amen.

Sister, if you prayed that prayer, and accepted Christ as your savior you are SAVED.




I love you all..............